Was not writing for more than a month nothing to the blog, but it doesn’t mean that I didn't have anything to tell you. So, there are quite many things to share from my daily life, but it’s always the matter of time, cause it always takes time from me to actually start writing something meaningful… So, sorry, guys :)
One of my personal aims during MC term is simply start paying attention to myself... I don’t remember at all, when last time in Almaty I had time to spend on my own – simply read a book which I want, have a calm walk from the city, think through the things to do in the nearest future and simply don’t rush anywhere… Yeah, maybe I’m complaining a lot, but its just the truth… Here in Estonia you have quite enough time to do all of that and smth. more, because for now the only responsibility I have here is AIESEC. And actually the country itself gives you such a mood – loads of green areas, calm nature without fast-changing landscape, sea nearby… Maybe that’s only my feeling, but that’s the way it is.
Well, I have several aims to be accomplished after my year in Estonia, they seems to be quite obvious, but very much important for me.
First of all, I want to prepare myself for master program degree in some European school. There are quite many things which are behind that, like choosing the right school and program I want to study which will be up to my interests and in some point the financial resources are also should be taken into account. And now the most important thing for me is preparation - pass several exams like language certification test and GMAT to be able to submit my documents to the school. Seems to be quite OK, but for sure loads of inner will is needed to keep it on track till the end. But that’s the next level I have to strive for and the next personal aim, which will very much contribute to my future plans and career. At least, I hope so… Well many things to think through, but I still didn’t start to deal with that. Somehow postponed until the “dark weather days” in Tallinn, when you don’t very keen to go out, as everybody frightening me with here… Let’s see, I will try to update you on that after some time.
Secondly, I wanted to find my personal interests and start following them. Here is already some progress in it – I have started to be very much interested in photography, but more or less it’s just like a hobby. It teaches you quite many things as I understand from my experience now, especially its being attentive to the beauty around you which you may skip from your eyes being very busy with life-routine. And here in Estonia, if you like being with the nature, it’s a perfect place for that. You may check some of my favorite photos of Estonian nature in Flikr (my ID is smileyaika) and here are some as well…
Also I found out my new “love” here – its Brazilian capoeira, which bring me a lot of motivation and physical challenges, which I haven’t had for quite a long time. But that’s some other story…
The third thing I wanted to write is about being independent, but in the sense not to follow the certain “standards” what young people used to have in my country and I’m sure not only there, but among any other young society, where the materialism gets the upper hand. I also want to be financially independent from my parents, which is still under my year plan here and I’m sure I’m going to start dealing with that soon. I have always been an independent person in the sense of decision making and I guess how my parents brought me up and it really helps me a lot here in Estonia mainly in creating inner mindset to count only on my own, because there no one else, who will take care of me…
Well, why am I’m writing all of that personal plans here, because of the simple reason – I give a promise to myself to keep that on track during the year and just inform you about that. There is a saying “it’s not a plan, if its not written down on the paper”… And if you don’t have anyone to track you or you don’t have small inner “push-ups” to start with that, then just give a promise to someone… So giving a promise to you, guys :) But I still need to have a talk with my mentor whom I didn’t approach for a long time, but who actually helped me a lot with personal preparation for MC and I’m sure will help me with external track on my personal development – I need that definitely, as self-motivation might go down some day…
So again nothing inspirational, just thoughts of a normal person who cares about herself... :)
More postings are coming this week…
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